I’m not sure if you’re aware, but there is a personality test called the Enneagram. It is a personality test and is unique in a couple of ways: it quantifies your personality into a number and it tells you how you relate to yourself and other people. The numbers range from 1-9; however, I’m going to focus on number 2. Where the Enneagram is concerned, twos are “The Helper” and yours truly is an Enneagram 2. To give you a general concept of enneagram 2, here is an excerpt of the description:
“People of this personality type essentially feel that they are worthy insofar as they are helpful to others. Love is their highest ideal. Selflessness is their duty. Giving to others is their reason for being. Involved, socially aware, usually extroverted, Twos are the type of people who remember everyone's birthday and who go the extra mile to help out a co-worker, spouse or friend in need.”
So how am I going to relate the enneagram to the bible? Easy. Let’s take a look at John 13. In this passage Jesus is washing the feet of his disciples. Jesus, whom the disciples worshiped, followed, and learned so much from, the teacher of all teachers, he washed his servant’s feet.
"So He got up from the meal, took off His outer clothing, and wrapped a towel around His waist. After that, He poured water into a basin and began to wash His disciples’ feet, drying them with the towel that was wrapped around Him.” John 13: 4-5
I have always known of this passage, but it wasn’t untill recently that I looked at it from the lens of a “2”. As someone who can tend to count my worthiness on how helpful I’m being, this story is such a radical view of God’s love to me. Seeing how God loved his disciples so much, by washing their feet. God deemed them worthy, and they didn’t have to do anything for him. It brings me so much happiness and joy, that I have a God who loves me in this way. I have done nothing to earn and deserve this love, yet God gives it freely and willingly.
To take this idea a bit further. We can see a bit of this “twoness” (as I’m calling it) in Simon Peter.
"He came to Simon Peter, who said to him, 'Lord, are you going to wash my feet?' Jesus replied, 'You do not realize now what I am doing, but later you will understand.' 'No,' said Peter, 'You shall never wash my feet.' Jesus answered, 'Unless I wash you, you have no part with me.' 'Then, Lord,' Simon Peter replied, 'Not just my feet but my hands and my head as well!'"
John 13: 6-9
This is a very relatable scenario; it’s very hard for me to be helped and loved as Simon Peter was. Simon Peter even showed a bit of reluctance at first. However, what is inspiring is Simon’s realization of what was God’s intention. He then fully committed himself to accepting Jesus gift. What this passage has shown me is how to accept God’s love in a deeper way.
Allowing others to love and help me, is God showing His love to me.
So, if you find yourself relating to the “2”, then take this story to heart as I did. God loves us, and counts us worthy. We have to do NOTHING to earn it. Also know that there may be times where others may lend a hand. Don’t refuse the help, or struggle mentally accepting it. Know that this is God showing you once again, that you are worthy and He wants to Love you.