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Finding Your Worth


“Congrats on graduating, what’s next? Do you have a job lined up?” 

For the first time in my life, I’m not completely sure what is coming next.

Throughout school, I always knew what was coming next. Elementary school, then middle school, high school, college, and then graduate school. Now that I’m done with graduate school, I don’t know what is coming next. I’ve always been a high achiever, so to be currently unemployed and waiting on a license that may take another few months to come through feels awkward. No one is telling me how to spend my time, but I still feel the need to answer for it. I find myself making lists of all the productive things I’ve accomplished. I feel the need to prove my worth through how productive I was in a day, but I’ve found that no one really cares. It’s all in my mind. Productivity does not equal worth.

I’ve been reading the book Present Over Perfect by Shauna Niequist. She talks about a disconnectedness from her soul and from the people and God that she loves. If you’ve been around me at all over my past three years in grad school, I’m sure you could see the same thing happening in my life. To go from the extreme pressure of grad school to unemployment is confusing, freeing, but confusing. Niequist writes, “I was addicted to this chaos, but like any addiction, it was damaging to me. Here’s what I know: I thought the doing and the busyness would keep me safe. They keep me numb.” 

Being busy meant that I thought I could escape the question, “Where is my worth coming from?” It’s a scary question. But now that I’m out of school and unemployed, I can’t use work and busyness as means for giving myself worth, and I now have to deal with the fact I have often equated worth with productivity. 

God does not view us as worthy because of what we do. The Bible says:

“For you formed my inward parts; you knitted me together in my mother’s womb. I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Wonderful are your works; my soul knows it very well.” Psalm 139:13-14

We are His, and He created us to be unique.

“But the Lord said to Samuel, ‘Do not look on his appearance or on the height of his stature, because I have rejected him. For the Lord sees not as man sees: man looks on the outward appearance, but the Lord looks on the heart.’” - 1 Samuel 16:7

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God does not care about our looks or status, He cares about our hearts. 


“Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, who has blessed us in Christ with every spiritual blessing in the heavenly places, even as he chose us in him before the foundation of the world, that we should be holy and blameless before him.” - Ephesians 1:3-4 (Also read the rest of Ephesians 1)

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God chose us. He chose YOU and he chose ME. He is the one who makes us worthy.

My worth is not in how productive or successful I am, how I look, or how much money I make. I’m striving to believe that my worth comes from the God who created me and sustains me. Our worth should be found in God. He created each one of us to be unique. We are his children. He knows us in a way no one else does. He took extreme measures to send his Son to die on the cross to save us from our sins. He does not look on our appearance or our work, but on our hearts. We do not earn our worth, it is given to us freely by God, just as grace and forgiveness are given. We are His, and that makes us worthy.


-Kaitlyn


Kaitlyn Fraser and her husband Niko have been members of Redemption for a little over 3 years. They co-lead the Wilmore Community Group. Kaitlyn also serves on the AV Team and leads a Discipleship Pod.